​Bullies & Allies is a beautiful and realistic story of the destructive power of Bullying & the healing power of Friendship. It brings light to lifelong Trauma & to lifelong Healing

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The Bullies and Allies Series Overview

Kyle Rickett is young, attractive, energetic, intelligent and funny. So why is life so difficult for him? Why is he suddenly withdrawn, lonely and even suicidal?

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Helpful Web Sites

The Trevor Project:  www.TheTrevorProject.org

Supporting LGBTQ and LGBTQ Youth, especially focused on suicide prevention.

Destiny House Restoration Center:  https://www.destinyhouserc.org/

Seattle Based organization committed to helping restore a sense of personal value in teen victims who have escaped Sex Trafficking in Seattle.

My Reading List

In Sheep's Clothingby Dr. George K Simon (https://www.drgeorgesimon.com/)

A short book and an easy read. The first book I ever read on the topic of toxic people. This book saved my life and led me toward more in depth reading on the topic of narcissistic and sociopathic relationships.

The Sociopath Next Door by Dr. Martha K. Stout

Fantastic book, written for us non-PHD's to understand the reality of how many narcissists and sociopaths actually walk among us. Dr. Stout gives us the information we need to recognize narcissistic/sociopathic tactics before we fall victim to them, and gives us advice on how to handle or escape narcissistic/sociopathic/toxic relationships.

Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thrivingby Pete Walker

I Highly recommend that everyone should read this introductory book as a perfect first read for anyone wondering if they have Complex PTSD and how their lives have been affected by it.

Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender by Dr. David R Hawkins

One of my very favorite books of all time. Dr. Hawkins teaches that we have access to only a handful of emotions, from fear to peace, but we could have thousands of memories that have attached themselves to these few emotions. He teaches through this book that pain is not found in memories or events, but rather our pain is ignited at the point where we have attached emotions to these memories or past events. In his earliest chapters, he gets right to the point, giving clear instructions on exactly how to let go of emotional ties to memories or events. I've been reading and rereading this book for years, repeatedly following his method for letting go of the pain without letting go of the memories, and it's been working. Given time and determination, his method has been helping me heal rapidly and permanently with a lot of my residual trauma triggers and flashbacks.

The Body Keeps the Scoreby Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.

Van Der Kolk helps us connect the dots between our emotional health, spiritual health, and physical health. This book outlines the reasons for and effects of how our emotional beliefs and traumas become physical issues. This book is a helpful tool for those who are trying to find the root of their illnesses or physical attributes. This is a very popular book.

The Seat of the Soulby Dr. Gary Zukav

One of the world's more popular reads, with long, loving forwards from Oprah Winfree and Dr. Maya Angelou, Zukav gives a well organized look at spirituality and trauma as a whole. His book has helped immensely with my chronic inability to meditate without distraction, and to find the places in my own heart and body where I have been my own stumbling block. This book is one that I reread often.

Holistically treating Complex PTSD: a Six Dimensional Approach by Pete Walker

In this newer book, Walker discusses the importance of healing from trauma in a holistic way: Relationally, behaviorally, cognitively, emotionally, somatically and spiritually.

In An Unspoken Voice by Peter A. Levine, PhD

This book spoke to my intelligence side. Levine describes how and why trauma has affected me as damagingly as it has. This book has been more helpful than I have words to express. As I read his detailed reasoning for how and why trauma ravages some of us, I find a deep sense of forgiveness for myself and the people who abused me. More than ever, after reading this book a few times, I finally grasp how trauma is a normal reaction in pretty much any species, and it lets me feel like I'm not a bad person because of the traumatic responses I've suffered since childhood. I highly recommend this read for anyone who can't figure out why trauma has made them behave in ways that don't feel right. 

The Artist's Wayby Julia Cameron

I reread this book from time to time to help me sort through the confusion of trying to find what makes me happy in life. As with many trauma survivors, nothing I wanted as a child was permitted. Art was seen as a waste of time. Any talents I had that did not help my father with his projects were shamed. Any time I ever said what I wanted to be when I grew up my entire family would laugh at me and say (and I quote): "You don't want that!" If I pushed it, they'd elaborate by listing all the legitimate reasons why I was too dumb or incompetent to do any of the things I thought I wanted. On my 18th birthday, my father who had never allowed me to ever talk about what I wanted to do with my life, suddenly burst into my room at 6 am and yelled angrily at me, "You're 18 now! What are you going to do?" I was, at that time, working in restaurants, a career I actually enjoyed. I said, "I have a job." He yelled, "You can't work in restaurants anymore!" So I obediently got dressed, got into my car, and went out looking for a factory job that would make him happy. As a result of this, I grew into an old, retired factory man who still didn't know what I wanted to be when I grew up. Cameron's book is written with people like myself in mind. People who've had artistic creativity torn from them and now don't know how to do anything but what they had been trained to want. The book has given me a great deal of direction as I am learning how to find and embrace the lost desires that I haven't been able to access in decades. I truly love this book.

Internal Family Systems by Richard Schwartz,

One of the more successful healing practices from Complex PTSD is Internal Family Systems. Each of us has more than on inner child. Many of us have many, many inner children, and many of those are driving our trauma behaviors. Trauma itself has an intelligence. It's purpose is to save us from going insane when the world isn't making sense. In IFS programs, each time an emotion is triggered, we may have an opportunity to connect with an inner child who is stuck in time from when the event happened. IFS therapy helps us to connect with each inner child when needed to help them help us. This type of therapy has been the most effective in my own healing venture.

The Others Within Us; Internal Family Systems, Porous Mind, and Spirit Possessionby Robert Falconer

Robert Falconer states often that healing from trauma must include a spiritual component along with physical and emotional components. He is another author among a growing body of authors who are including spiritual aspects for a more rounded and holistic approach to healing. In my own opinion, I was brought down into distress physically, emotionally and spiritually, and therefore it stands to reason that I should heal all three aspects of my life also. Focusing only on cognitive physical healing is effectively patching only one of the three holes in the hull of my ship. I need to heal all three holes if I want to stop sinking.

Falconer started with Richard Schwartz's IFS therapy and expanded it to include such things as how these inner voices are created within us. Dr. Schwartz supported Falconer's work and wrote the forward for this book. In this book, I was intrigued by Falconer's reports of how he has helped many clients with inner parts that may have come from other places, such as ancestral transfer at birth, to new parts that enter the body during weaknesses that might come while being under anesthesia or being dissociated from the body during sexual abuse. When the mind dissociates or is medicated by chemicals, it can't defend itself from visiting entities. The book fascinates me. Having endured sexual abuse, surgeries and years of dissociative trances, I can attest that it definitely felt like something changed in me after some of these events.

It Didn't Start with You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are and How to End the Cycleby Mark Wolyn

This book helps to understand how it is that ancestral traumas are in play long before we are even born into a family. Ancestral trauma is prevalent in cultures that have experienced horrific mass abuse, such as holocaust survivors, indigenous races, and even just the general poverty, war, strife and struggle that our ancestors encountered.

​Attunedby Thomas Hübl  

This book is opening me up to the urgent need for global healing around trauma disorders. In this book, Hübl teaches how Individual traumas and ancestral traumas contribute to a collective trauma. In my words, Hübl is teaching me that because we are all connected ethereally in the quantum world, that as we heal from trauma as individuals, our healing contributes to the global healing of everyone. This book is so packed with amazing information about trauma and what we can do to heal with it that I can't say enough about it. I have put this book on Audible and I listen to it often while I sleep in hopes that if I listen and read this book enough times while awake and asleep, I'll one day feel like I've absorbed all the helpful information he's put into it.

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